November 27, 2001

Crying
by: EJ

I've been crying at night,

So much for sleeping snug as a bug,

Although there are no monsters under the bed,

I'm still scared out of my mind,

Scared of losing you,

Mainly to change,

I don't think you can see that you're changing,

But its clear as day to me,

Best friends don't have communication problems,

For each tomorrow that comes now,

I see that you're drifting farther away from me,

You get closer and closer to new best friends,

Perhaps thats what I'm afraid of,

Knowing you can move on in a life without me,

And me knowing that I couldn't survive without you,

Every moment I am thinking of you,

And as of now when no one is around,

Is when I cry,

Just that one single tear,

Allows the rest come in a continuous flow,

Until there are no more left to cry,

If things stay the way they are,

I'll eventually drown in my own sea of tears.

November 6, 2001

Decisions
by: EJ

Decisions... Decisions,

There are too many to make,

Should I do this,

Well what about that,

I can't decide what to do,

This sounds good,

But that sounds better,

Its just pure insanity,

I know what I have to do,

But thats not necessarily what I want to do,

My duties,

And my wants,

Seem to battle each other,

But one eventually wins,

The consequences of tomorrow,

Are not something I look forward to,

After all of my choices,

Come the results,

Ughh... there are so many decisions to make,

Its pure insanity.