August 22, 2002

A New World
by: EJ

It's a strange new world,

I needed something to change,

My past held nothing more for me,

I can't change my past,

But I can change the future,

I have to follow my dreams,

And reach for the stars,

I must let go of the people in my past,

But not the memories,

I believe this new world,

Holds so many more possibilities for me,

This life is definately different and strange,

But I suppose I will adapt to it eventually,

With life,

It is always survival of the fittest,

In order to survive,

One must adapt,

I'm not as scared as I was before,

Perhaps its because I know they accept me,

They like me for the quirky person that I am,

This new world,

Is just another goal,

That I shall conquer.

July 26, 2002

The Past
by: EJ

Here lately,

I've been able to look at my past,

And actually laugh about it,

I was so pathetic,

I was so mature,

Yet so childish at the same time,

I was so naive,

I suppose I still am sometimes,

I lived my life,

All for other people,

Trying to make them happy,

But through it all,

I made myself miserable,

I admit, it was self-inflicted,

So here lately,

I've been focusing on my happiness,

I've been patient for so long,

And I've waited for so long,

I think its finally time for me,

Alot of people think I'm conceited,

And self-centered,

But I don't care anymore,

Of what they think,

I don't want my future,

To be like my miserable past.

July 26, 2002

I Tried
by: EJ

Not too long ago,

I finally said goodbye,

I gave my final plea,

Funny thing is,

I always thought,

That things were all my fault,

Truth is,

They were mostly her's,

She treated me horribly,

Yet I always blamed myself,

I tried one last time,

To make things right,

Between us,

But so far nothing has happened,

But hey,

If things don't turn out good,

Atleast I can say,

I tried.

January 31, 2002

Just for a Moment
by: EJ

Just for a moment I wish I could think about nothing,

Just for a moment I wish someone would hold me,

Just for a moment I wish I could sleep,

Just for a moment I wish I could have a different life,

Just for a moment I wish I wasn't here,

Just for a moment I wish I could have my first kiss,

Just for a moment I wish my parents weren't divorced,

Just for a moment I wish I wasn't involved in so many sports,

Just for a moment I wish i could party every weekend,

Just for a moment I wish I could go back in my past,

Just for a moment I wish I was still best friends with her,

Just for a moment I wish I was more outgoing,

Just for a moment I wish I would try harder at school,

Just for a moment I wish I could play soccer in college,

Just for a moment I wish I was completely happy,

Just for a moment I wish everything would go as planned,

Just for a moment I wish all of these wishes would come true,

But thats the fact,

They are only wishes,

They may or may not come true,

But just for a moment I wish I could know if they would come true or not,

Just for one moment.

January 7, 2002

Replaced
by: EJ

Everything changes with time,

Especially people,

She once said she couldn't replace me,

But she said it herself today,

She already has,

You lose friends,

And with that a part of you too,

But you eventually gain new friends,

And gain that part back,

I can see she'll be fine without me,

Her life has changed,

She has new friends,

Practically sisters she says,

Well I can say that was us once,

But that was then,

And this is now,

Things definately aren't the way they were back then,

After talking to her today,

I know she can live without me,

She nearly has a happy life,

And I'm the one thats hindering her from complete bliss,

I can't stand in her way anymore,

My obvious attempts for us to get close again,

Won't ever work,

I've realized things won't ever be like they were in the past,

So I'm stepping out,

Of her path in life,

My part in it is obviously finished,

Thats all I can feel and think of,

When I'm in her prescence,

There is nothing more I can do,

She has changed her life,

To which I don't have much part in it,

We aren't even friends anymore,

Just mere aquaintences,

But thats ok,

Cause things have changed,

After all I've been replaced.