July 29, 2001

Amazed
by: EJ

I think I know why,

Wolves howl at the moon,

They're appreciating the earth's beauty,

But sometimes its the smallest things,

That amaze me the most,

Like the petals of a flower,

To the ripples in flowing water,

But also things like,

Glaciers and mountains amaze me too,

It's just the magnificent design and texture,

Everything is also very different,

When you compare it to another,

Which makes it original and unique,

But listening to the wind blow through the trees,

Absolutely hypnotizes me,

Or just looking up at the stars,

On hot summer nights,

But I don't know,

Theres just something about nature,

That always amazes me.

July 24, 2001

Let Go
by: EJ

Its time to leave this place,

I don't belong here,

Its not for me,

You know its true,

So why won't you let go,

You don't really care about me,

Cause no one does,

I hate it here,

Its so confusing,

All I really know,

Is the pain it causes,

I need to have a new beginning,

I have to leave this place behind,

It hurts too much,

I'm crying out to you,

Please, oh please,

Quit holding me back,

I'm miserable here,

Let me go.

July 24, 2001

What Would You....
by: EJ

What would you do if I went crazy?

What would you do if I said that I hated my brothers?

What would you think if I said that I thought I was bisexual?

What would you think if I suddenly went on a road trip?

What would you say if I told you I wanted to kill myself?

What would you say if I told you to bring it on?

What would you do if I moved away?

What would you think if I stopped playing sports?

What would you do if you knew all of my secrets?

What would you say if I said that I needed you?

What would you think if I gave you everything I owned?

What would you do if I dropped out of school and became a bum?

What would you do if I died tomorrow?

What would you do if we weren't friends?

What would you think if I came to you crying in the middle of the night?

What would you say if I told you I missed you every moment you're not around?

What would you say if I said that I love you?

What would you really say, think, or do?

July 20, 2001

Words
by: EJ

Words are hard,

But theres always a wild card,

Things need to be said,

But I have to use my head,

I have to be wise,

I must apologize,

I never meant to hurt you,

Or to make you blue,

I am on my knees,

Will you forgive me,

I knew I was closing up,

But I didn't mean to blow up,

I really am sorry,

But I can't give you a ferrari,

But from my point of view,

All I know is that I love you,

You are my best friend,

Words are also powerful.

July 12, 2001

Questioning
by: EJ

I'm questioning my sexuality,

Its kind of like virtual reality,

I know it seems strange,

But its always within my range,

I've had many clues,

But this ones new,

The same sex has my attraction,

But mostly to my satisfaction,

You just so happen to meet,

The ones that are ever so sweet,

I can't help who I end up wanting,

Geez its so taunting,

I can't help how I feel,

This is just my appeal,

However I still like guys,

But theres more than meets the eye,

I know about the birds and the bees,

But what about the uncharted seas,

In the long run,

It might be fun in the sun,

But I can't get burned,

If I leave no stone unturned.

July 11, 2001

Experimental
by: EJ

I have no soul,

So I'm not all whole,

Usually miserable,

Feeling invisible,

Probably manic depressive,

Yet still supressive,

I'm usually sentimental,

But also experimental,

Sometimes I drink,

Does that mean my life is in a kink,

I want to smoke,

But not weed or coek,

Sometimes I crave,

To go to a rave,

Usually I put on a happy act,

To get people off my back,

I hide my sorrows,

Deep down in burrows,

You can't criticize,

Cause you can't sympathize,

But when all is said and done,

You can be the first one.

July 8, 2001

Once Again
by: EJ

Happiness is on life's sink,

It can be washed away in just a blink,

I thought it was cool,

But I was just a fool,

It was a big deal,

But its not real,

I must have been especially picked,

Cause I was the one tricked,

I thought it would be pure joy,

But I was once again their toy,

I guess I'm at their dispense,

I'm glad I was used to make amends,

I had something special brewed,

But in the end I was the one that got screwed,

I am so sick of this,

Everything is amiss,

Don't expect me not to be mad,

Cause with this I'm even more sad,

When will things change.