December 7, 2007
Hanger
by: EJ
Its another sleepless night,
I blame it on her and her beautiful face,
I still see her eyes smiling back at me,
Hair blowing in the wind,
The sunlight beaming down on her,
Like a sign from God,
Theres something about her,
That makes me believe in life again,
I've found love, hope, faith, and happiness,
Things I never dreamt of feeling again,
Nothing of this magnitude atleast,
I can't get her off my mind,
I see her in everything and everyone,
I picture her little swagger when she walks,
I hear her in every lyric to any song,
I picture her singing the songs she loves,
She's in the odometer of my car,
Telling me I'm only so many miles from her,
I have itchy texting thumbs,
My fingers attracted to the keyboard like magnets,
How I wish I could sweep her off her feet again,
I know I have the ability,,
Just please give me the opportunity,
How can so very few moments make me feel this way,
If my blood counts are off,
Its cause she's coursing through my veins,
She is in every fucking beat of me,
I tried so hard not to fall,
We both tried to stop it,
I'm in a situation I can not change,
She has a life and a significant other,
Her loyalty only makes me want her more,
I've lost my two best friends to this,
I can't interfere any more,
Being with them destroys me,
My feelings intensify as does the awkwardness,
I try to stay away and stop contact,
Clearly said and clearly asked,
Yet she keeps coming around,
Writing, texting, calling,
Not wanting to lose me,
Not going to stop trying to be my friend,
How much more clearer do I have to be,
I want so much more than that,
My feelings aren't going to change,
They won't just go away,
I know how it feels to be close enough to feel her warmth,
I feel completely content in her arms,
To feel the endless possibilities,
They exist,
Do you hear me,
Those forever type of feelings,
They exist,
I keep trying to go away,
Ignore how I feel,
But she keeps coming back around to me,
For once is someone coming after me,
Trying not to overanalyze things,
What else am I supposed to think,
When she tells me a song reminds her of us,
She said it made her think of what could have been,
To me that seems like she still has feelings,
Such a hard situation,
Change is hard,
You can't just drop someone you've been with for two years,
You can't just fall for someone else,
To that I say imagine me and you,
It is more than just a fairy tale,
It is a possibility,
A chance,
A opportunity,
Please just realize and don't let it pass by this time,
How I wish for one thing,
To whisper in your ear and tell you how I feel,
Before I wanted to say I think I could love you,
Now I know I could love you,
She has so much to risk,
But how much will she lose by never taking the risk,
Please just realize.