October 28, 2001

Tell Me Please
by: EJ

I'm feeling lonely again,

Wish someone was here,

To hold me tight,

I long for that warm embrace,

I want to feel like I belong here,

And to be needed by another,

I want to know that someone loves me,

Is it so wrong,

To want these things,

I want to know that someone cares,

That I am alive,

Someone to comfort and reassure me,

Cause I assure you,

I would do the same for you,

So please,

Will you tell me you love me,

Will you hold me tight,

And comfort me,

And let me know that I do belong here,

I don't want to feel lonely anymore,

So will you hold me,

So tell me please.

October 18, 2001

Time
by: EJ

As I walk these halls,

So many faces,

Most of them I know,

But is doesn't matter,

We don't talk much anymore,

We've all changed over time,

Made new and different friends,

But that doesn't mean we forget,

About each other,

We know that we're still here,

We may not hang out now,

Like we used to,

But we'll always be friends,

Because deep within us,

We know we have a past,

And you can't forget that,

Throughout time,

We all change,

But out past,

Is part of why we change,

Its the past we cherish,

And the time in the future,

Is what we look forward to.

October 15, 2001

Internal Hell
by: EJ

I'm living a private life,

Thats an internal hell,

My soul is on fire,

But no one can see the flames,

And the demons within me,

Are ripping it into pieces,

On the outside,

I seem perfect and content,

But I am really,

Struggling to stay alive,

The screaming comes not from my mouth,

But from my heart,

These screams pierce my own ears,

But they fall silent to an ordinary person,

My interior is a blazing inferno,

No one sees the flames,

Cause my eyes are glazed over with ice,

The darkness within me is taking over,

The world might never know,

What goes on within me,

The darkness can hide everything,

To the world I will appear happy,

But I'm really living in an internal hell.

October 12, 2001

Girl Without You,
by: EJ

Girl without you,

I don't know what I'd do,

You are everything to me,

My life,

I will always love and trust you,

No matter what,

I abide in you,

I lwan on you during bad times,

I look to you for advice,

And strength to go on,

I look to you for happiness,

After all you are my best friend,

My confidant,

You mean so much to me,

Girl without you,

I wouldn't be alive today,

Without you,

I'd go insane,

My life would be empty and worthless,

Girl without you,

I would lose a sister,

And a part of me too,

I don't want to lose you,

You are too important to me,

To let you go so easily,

Especialy over something,

My mind imagined,

You've done so much for me,

I still want to return those favors,

I love you so much,

I can't believe,

Something like you,

Happened to me,

I am so glad you are,

A part of my life,

I appreciate everything,

You've done for me,

Cause, girl without you,

I don't know what I'd do.

October 11, 2001

Restart
by: EJ

Times are getting rough,

Will we make it through,

Thats all I'm asking these days,

I see you in pain,

Yet I can't stop,

Doing what I'm doing,

I made you cry,

Thats the last thing,

I wanted to do,

I could apologize,

A trillion times,

But I don't think,

That it would change much,

We'll probably have to start,

All over again,

From the beginning,

Cause I know thats where,

You first began to trust me,

But I now know,

I've lost that trust,

So if you'll give me the chance,

I'll earn your trust again,

Well I think its time,

For us to press the restart button.

October 4, 2001

Haunting
by: EJ

This time around,

I won't be lucky,

Things won't go back to normal,

Its just not possible,

Not after what I did,

Even if we could reconcile,

I don't think,

I could forgive myself,

The memories will always haunt me,

For now,

Things are awkward,

And I do plenty of avoiding,

I know it has to hurt her,

But some part of me,

Is driving me to end our friendship,

Trust me,

I'm hurting too,

I think about her 24/7,

And about what I did,

And it haunts me the entire time.

October 4, 2001

Never to be Found
by: EJ

I'm lost,

Just spinning in circles,

Don't know where I'm going,

Just totally oblivious,

Of whats happening,

I thought for a moment,

I caught a glimpse,

Of something I recognized,

But nope it was fake,

I was still lost and spinning,

Suddenly the spinning comes to a halt,

And the truth is blindingly clear,

I figured out what was going on,

Oh my gosh,

What have I just done,

I'm so stupid,

I just ruined everything,

And I know I can't take anything back,

Now this life,

Is not worth living,

I wish to be lost again,

And never to be found,

So the spinning begins again.