July 16, 2007

Hour-Glass

by: EJ

The feelings have returned yet again,

Craving that cold blade,

Of dragging it across my flesh,

The urge is so strong,

Like the ocean tide,

Pulling me further and further away from shore,

From sanity,

The tiny grains of this time bomb,

Are gracefully pouring down that odd-shaped glass,

Hypnotized as they all fall down,

Leaving a vast emptiness,

Drop a blackcat in it,

And watch it all explode,

Perhaps the glass will pierce your heart,

And you'll feel my pain,

But perhaps you've felt it before,

I will not deny these feelings,

Merely accept that they are there,

And consistently flip that hour-glass,

Hoping that time won't run out,

I'll still fight like I always have,

But if you notice a new mark,

Don't be surprised,

Just know I gave in,

And waved that white flag once again.

July 16, 2007

Limerence 

by: EJ

Here in this strange place,

Trying to being again,

Struggling to find a foothold,

Hopes of tomorrow,

End with today,

No more thoughts of yesterday,

No more ideas of her and I,

I hoped of finding clarity,

But my vision was only blurred,

The timing isn't right,

It never has been and never will be,

Is it my procrastination,

In the form of limerence,

The lust-love of the unattainable,

Denial of reality,

In hopes of a future love,

Easily dismissing my goals in life,

For the touch of another,

But it was her touch,

Her face next to mine,

Only a momentary thing,

She's back with her comfortable other,

Familiarity is easier,

When faced with the unknown,

Scary isn't necessarily always a bad thing,

Losing out on a magnificent thing,

Is what I'd be afraid of,

So I try and fail.