July 26, 2002

The Past
by: EJ

Here lately,

I've been able to look at my past,

And actually laugh about it,

I was so pathetic,

I was so mature,

Yet so childish at the same time,

I was so naive,

I suppose I still am sometimes,

I lived my life,

All for other people,

Trying to make them happy,

But through it all,

I made myself miserable,

I admit, it was self-inflicted,

So here lately,

I've been focusing on my happiness,

I've been patient for so long,

And I've waited for so long,

I think its finally time for me,

Alot of people think I'm conceited,

And self-centered,

But I don't care anymore,

Of what they think,

I don't want my future,

To be like my miserable past.

July 26, 2002

I Tried
by: EJ

Not too long ago,

I finally said goodbye,

I gave my final plea,

Funny thing is,

I always thought,

That things were all my fault,

Truth is,

They were mostly her's,

She treated me horribly,

Yet I always blamed myself,

I tried one last time,

To make things right,

Between us,

But so far nothing has happened,

But hey,

If things don't turn out good,

Atleast I can say,

I tried.