April 12, 2004

Lost

by: EJ

How many times have I been lost before,

Have I ever really been found,

I don't think so,

I'm excellent at fooling others,

But I'm even better at fooling myself,

I don't understand how I make it through everyday,

I don't belong to anything,

Not a group or a person,

Not this school or this life,

None of it has meaning,

But yet I still stumble along the same path,

Even if I changed paths,

I'd still be lost,

Its been so long since I've felt safe and content,

I've been searching for so long,

To find that place again,

Perhaps it was destroyed or is now invisible,

I'm tired of being scared and alone,

Will I be stuck on this deserted island for eternity,

Perhaps I'll just go crazy one day,

And walk off into the tides of the uncharted seas,

And be washed away into it's deepest crevices,

Then I'll truely never be found,

Maybe I'm searching for the wrong thing,

Maybe I should just find some amazing grace.