September 14, 2005

Anxiety

by: EJ

This disease within me is overwhelming,

The fear immobilizes me,

My lack of a social life,

Is due to this,

No one knows how bad it can be,

These panic attacks that consume me,

I can't even drive,

I know in my heart,

I'll die in a car crash,

From falling asleep from my sleep apnoea,

Any hint of sleepiness,

Any sign of too many people,

I freak out,

Rapid eye movement,

Heart pounding,

Quieting sneaking away from the world,

But no one notices,

Cause somehow its well hidden,

I'm amazing at playing it off,

If I drop off the face of the earth for awhile,

Now you'll know why.