March 28, 2005

Uncertain

by: EJ

Clenching my jaws,

My hands shake,

So completely restless,

My mind is a little hazy,

I am uncertain,

Money and greed,

Needs and wants,

Love and passion,

Pain and strife,

They're all blurring together these days,

Just like my conceptions of myself,

All running together,

Like splattered paint on a wall,

Unknowing of where each drop will end up,

I am uncertain,

Of who I am,

And what I've become,

And where I've been,

This confusion I'm in,

Is life-affirming,

It is no simple matter,

I am questioning who I am,

And thats a first,

This uncertainty,

Is a huge reality check.