March 28, 2005

Final Curtain

by: EJ

I'm on the verge again,

Of relapsing that is,

I decided to write more,

And started up the meds again,

I couldn't handle spiralling out of control again,

But I'm getting to that point,

I'm almost comfortably numb,

Emotionally dead to the world,

I fight this every fucking day,

I haven't give up yet,

I haven't given in to my temptations,

This feeling inside me,

This hollow emptiness within my soul,

Is simply uncomprehendable to most people,

I'm scared of losing my sanity again,

Of losing everything again,

Its an all too familiar story,

I'm trying my hardest,

To not have a repeat of that novel,

If it happened,

It would be the end of me,

My final curtain call.